STRESS

I hate stress so much. I just CAN'T deal with it. I have so much to do at school and if I make a list I'll get even more depressing. Me and Emma were just making a list and I had to stop myself it was so depressing. I get depressed easily but I get over it easily so I guess it balances out.

I'm stressed about schoolwork.. and my extra curriculars... and especially my weight. Yeah I can literally grab my flabs now.

Anyways I definitely need more stimulation in my life. My friend Joe suggest we have a rowdy gettogether at rainbows end where everybody HAS to be high on pills and getting all freaky but I dont know if I'll go considering the amount of work I have to do which SUCKS coz i wanna hang out sooooo bad.

I'm not really into pills that much anyways, me Alissa and Kev are all naturals and we're more into herbs and shrooms and stuff, not chemicals, oh no.

Or instead of getting high, I could do something to keep me occupied. Not tetris battle but something more active like yoga or like dancing or something. Or I could join that mysterious cult that always meditates on Aotea square everyday.... Or I need to find a hot guy and start liking him or any hot guy to start liking me so I could have some more fun but the trouble is I'm at AIC and that doesnt help plus I cant go clubbing lately coz my friend is about to get fired for letting too many underaged people in.

It sucks coz my best friend doesnt talk to me anymore we havent been talking in ages I'm kinda mad at her I make so much effort but I dont think she sees it shes too busy in her own world I guess its really the end for us now.

FUCK MY LIFE.