buffed, beautiful and bitchin

oh my god it has been so long since I blogged and wooowww
no changes.

im not up to much lately just random shiz at school
tho tomorrow is beachday i hope its fun a lot of people say its shit but oh well our school events are never quite.. well... fun.

shit

is how I am feeling at the moment.




I know you're not impressed.
But you should be encouraging me instead of making me feel even more like shit.
Aren't you supposed to make me feel better at least a little bit?

FUCK

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK



















you

epiphany

i had an epiphany.
I realised that I blog too much.
And that I also go on facebook and do nothing and waste time on it.
So from now on, I will STOP facebook (i won't deactivate it tho) and i will REDUCE (yes, reduce) blogging.
My grades went down SO much and its pissing the shit out of me at the moment, and I got loads of shit to do SOOO i will take care of myself, control my urges and stop.

I will also ground myself until i finish SATs. Ofcourse, this excludes birthday parties or afterschool hangouts.

I WILL also continue my TKD and flute, and also begin more activities that will grant me more CAS hours.

Thats right.

shit I talk like a gay fag.

yeah these should have been my new years resolutions, but i was too lazy
i am NOT going to be lazy anymore
next week, I will catch up on my detention and focus on my SATs and ACTs.. such a bitch
then I will be free (if it weren't for the mocks.. and uni apps) around... i dont know october hopefully. That is my goal i will finish everything and make my self free by october.

then its party time.

you're paralyzed

English IOP is annoying me once again.
Today was a pretty average day, I didn't really feel much excitement or sadness
Actually I was kind of stressed with my math test mark coz I did worse than I thought I would.
Yeeah i did shittier than I thought I would
Now I am nervously waiting for my Chemistry test result and History
Ugh this terms grades are fucked I know it.
And english but I don't expect much from it.

Tomorrow I will make sure I get some pearl milk tea to make myself happy.
I didn't take any pictures today, nothing exciting.

I have so many insecurities within myself I'm starting to piss myself off.

This is like, a personal thing so nobody can really help me out, I can only help myself.

oh yeah.

I dedicate this blog to the gullible guy who accompanied us to spookers last night. Thumbs up YA PEP!
soo gullible

well basically. Me, Sally, Claire, Bella and Alissa pretended that we do not know anything about Hitler and the Holocaust and Stalin the Jews and stuff. He asked " WHAT DO YOU GUYS LEARN IN SCHOOL? ' we were like oh yep, chinese cultural revolution,
we just pretended to be really dumb and clueless and we do not know what anything was and me and Bella fully managed to convince him that World War Three is on right now between Lybia, Egypt, America and Russia and I was like "Thats why Obama is so unpopular lately because he won't do much about it!" and he was like "oh yeah I think I heard of something like that"
omg.
and he was like "Hitler was involved in World War One"
opsh no he wasnt. WW2 wasnt it?

Anyways me and Bella pretended that Calligraphy and Yoga was one of the most important aspects of IB diploma and that we are very stressed about our Calligraphy marks.
We also dissed cambridge for not doing calligraphy and stated that he wont understand anything at school since he doesnt do calligraphy.
he was fully convinced.

So .. dumb asians really exist?

I rest my case.

cool.

yeah well I had to sleep over at Alissa's after Claire's party it was so late and we had shit loads to do.
Spookers was great! it was actually like more convincing and it was just ... i dont know... I thought it was pretty good. Now I kinda wish I did the corn field but then at that time I was feeling really shit and worried and I was just really tired.

Anyways yeah I'm sleep deprived, got lots to do, and plus mum needs help during evening so I might have to work again this evening which could take up some of my time...
but no worries I mean at least I get paid for it which is pretty good.

Um had a pretty shit night yesterday but everything is sorted and I am really happy that some people got worried about me and stuff. Thank you guys :)

Aaaanywayssss since I am about to go to sleep again and had a good breakfast and in a pretty neutral, stressed mood, I want to rant about two things I want.

Viktor & Rolf Flowerbomb perfume!

Not only it looks cute, it smells soooo good.

Moschino Belt

I know. It's a really plain, boring belt.

but no, this belt here goes with every single outfit you can imagine, from punk biker style to girly tutus to vintage dresses chiffon shirts pencil skirts and preppy cardis. I want this sooo bad. NO. I NEED THIS.

Um yeah. actually I have WAYY more that I want. I want like tons of stuff from urban decay and all those lipglosses and lipsticks and blush sticks from nars but the trouble is they dont have these in New Zealand which just pisses the shit out of me.

OMG SIGMA BRUSHES

I want this kit sooo bad. It's make me blush coral brush kit!! has everything I want and need at the moment and this will be third on my wishlist (ofcourse it cannot top moschino belt and the flowerbomb)

yeah.

Um yesterday after I came home I realised I had a massive headache so I went to sleep and I just woke up at around five in the morning and took a shower. It's 6:24am at the moment and I'm going to school soon and I'm looking at all the fashion bloggers like blondesalad and fashiontoast and I realise how thirsty I am so I'm about to go out and get a can of coke or something...

Yesterday after school Alissa bought me a chocolate sundae :)
and I happened to bump into some my friends from senior but I didnt really want to be there it was boring so I went home.

Anyways I still haven't done my CV because I was obviously asleep and I still have a lot to do.. plus I have a math test today which I don't think I really need to study for, but I will after I get my can of coke from that 24/7 diner stoner. Kay bye  xx

I'm a cartoon character, you'll never be able to be like meeeee

so

I'm studying chem.
I needed some boost in energy so I had some wine.. but that didnt really help so I had coffee as well... now I'm screwed coz now I probably will stay up the whole night.

Today at school I was so amazingly bored I put make up on Justin Bieber and I gotta admit, he suits make up more than me. That bitch.:

In the photo it looks weird but it does look alright.

I wanted to leave early coz I was in so much pain but Alissa wanted ice cream so we went to Giapo together and had some fabulous gelato

Mine on the left: Hazelnut and Pavlova

Alissa's on the right: Milk caramel and hokey pokey

The Hazelnut was amazing. I always loved that flavour and I always will.

Love of my life: Hazelnut gelato

Nothing really interesting happened. Like I really don't know what to write anymore and I am not really inspired by anything today.

I just know that, tomorrow is chem test and I am not ready.

And I don't want to spend the whole night studying.

Rock got no reason, rock got no rhyme

I am kind of stressed about my bio because I did really shit.. I'm just glad that this grade isnt going in to universities but I still want a good report.

I am doing my EE research as well as watching one of my favourite movies in the world.. noo not white chicks although I LOVE that movie. I'm watching School of Rock :) I've always loved that movie.

Anyways oh my god I am so stressed and I think I'm starting to go insane because of all this pressure and all this stuff I need to worry about it is so frustrating and it tires me everyday.

I thought that it had gotten better but it seems it hasn't, actually I think I am more depressed than I was during the holidays or whatever. I hope this just all goes away soon.. but I just don't know when.

My mum is really into talking to me about my uni and future careers and plans and stuff, and that stresses me even more...

I HATE EE.
Oh well

Hahaha I just came back from the gym oh my god I am so tired.. I better sleep early today..

I whip my hair back and forth

Haha I actually took so much photos just so I could upload onto my blog but I never got around to doing it.

DONUTS! Looove donuts.

Porn Mag. Me and Alissa discovered this at Borders on Sunday ahaha.

Oh that's all I can be bothered uploading

Anyways it was Claire's birthday!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAIRE!

Me and Alissa got her a burger phone.

I have this unhealthy obsession with Willow Smith's whip my hair.

and Nichole337's version of it. She's so retarded ahaha

I really need to catch up on skins.

Tuesdays are normally my catch up day so I catch up sleep, food, homework and skins episodes.

Anyways mood for today: am I happy? I guess it's not so bad right now

I need to vent out things in my mind.

Soo much shit is happening right now it's not even funny.

Well first, want to talk about what happened today. Today wasn't as shit as I thought it'd be. School day was normal and after school was craazyy! Me, Sally and Alissa got that small amount of smirnoff from Wingo and we diluted it with juice and carried them in bottles. We then decided to get drunk and go to karaoke.

We went to sky, and we weren't drunk yet but when we started singing I think it started to kick in, especially for Sally since she drunk HEAPS. Yeah. We were screaming our head off and dancing and took lots of photos and videos oh my god.. for like about an hour THEN we got half an hour service so we had another 30 mins of wild moment.

We decided that we were hungry so we went to ate Donkatsu.. ahahaha sally was actually like licking the plate. Then we went to Smart to get ice cream then there was like this garden festival thing on aotea square so we went and chilled there. We couldn't get in to watch Vietnamese water puppets which was a shame so we just lied on the grass and looked at the stars and went all funny and dumb. Probably sober by then. Then we saw a tranny.

Yeah so we all went home afterwards but it was soo much fun.

Probably because I have so much going on right now and just thinking about it pisses me off. Today I realised how fast time goes coz I only have like a fucking month till the Nepal trip which is INSANE. Then I have ACTs reaaally really soon and I have to see my EE supervisor and sort out my TOK question and do Chem Lab and Chem test and Math Test and English IOP then I'm done. Then I'll have to study for SATs and learn all my vocabs and revise my grammar structures and practice more and then probably sit my JLPTs again in July. Not only this, I have this massive hater at school (me and Sally) we don't know who it is but whoever you are, fuck you.

I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE JUST PISS ME OFF OR HAVE PROBLEMS WITH ME FOR THE SMALLEST THINGS.

I hate people who get all depressed over nothing.

I hate people who doesn't understand you.

I hate it when I can't tell anyone about everything that's going on.

Just stop talking to me about what I should do and stop talking to me about your 'depressing' problems and personal issues stop talking to me stop asking me to do so much stop questioning me stop suspecting me stop annoying me just leave me alone

SHUT THE FUCK UP SHUT THE FUCK UP SHUT THE FUCK UP.

Things I really LOVE.

I decided to dedicate this entry to things I like:

1. Shoes.

 These are lita boots. I want this one.

and this.

and this.

These are pixie boots. I want this in black and fur. The first ever pair of Jeffrey Campbell I saw were these in fur.

This is Alicia in fur. Sooo cute!

Anyways I always love Jimmy choo:

They partnered up with UGGS to produce this baby.

I want one. But the problem is.. it's not in New Zealand.

Not to mention expensive. It's about 700... Euros.

2. Electro, House, Dubstep.

I can't explain why I like this type of music, it's just good to listen to. 

My fave. 

Yeah, I like David Guetta, Steve Aoki, Kaskade Bloody Beetroots, Armand van Helden, Tiesto (LEGEND), Benny Benassi, Rusko, Chris Lake, Fedde le Grand, Dennis de Laat and other typical artists alright. 

But you can never miss out on:

JUSTICE

THE CHEMICAL BROTHERS. Yeah, the Salmon Dance was a retarded track. But you have to remember they created Star Guitar, Hey Boy Hey Girl, Don't Think (this was actually the soundtrack for Black Swan), Galvanize, Another World, Do It Again, and other legendary club tracks.

aaand PENDULUM.

Tho I listen to mainstream, I love Rihanna, Lady Gaga, Kanye West, LMFAO.... and Black Eyed Peas. They used to be real ghetto and now they're more electro. I always loved them.

I do listen to a tad bit of underground like Arka Teks, Baxter Baxter and Fat Segal. But that is all.

3. Karaoke.

Do I really need to explain?

4. FOOD!

As you can see all the things I really take a picture of is food. Coz I'm obsessed with food. I love food. I practically live to eat. Me and my friends bond while eating. I love donuts.

5. Make up

I love MAC. I wanted that Lady Gaga lipstick forever.

But recently they came up with a new range that NO Asians (well not the Chinese, Koreans and Japanese) can pull off.

Yeah. It's the Wonder Woman range.

6. Not Doing Work.

Same with everyone else.

7. Skins

Season 1

Season 2

Season 3

8. Games.

Not games like .. sudden attack or something...but more likeeeeeee

9. Burger King

for some reason I've always been a fan of whopper :)

probz coz it has a lot of vegetables and sauces compared to other burgers! yum!

I also looovee Subway but not as much :P

10. Starbucks

I just luuuurrrveeee frapps ... esp chocolate and caramel ones. I hate starbucks fruit drinks for some reason but i've always been a fan of their coffee. I also like their hot white chocolate, and if you have that with maple scone its just heavenly.

...........

I'm sick so I'm bored.. yeah so I'm blogging coz I have nothing better to do really.

Nothing really happened all I did was sleep and eat..

Oh My God

Can't believe I forgot but me, Alissa, Sally, Claire and Emma had curry after school . 

And me and Emma and Alissa had snow ice and ranted on about Jeffrey Campbell boots and other designer stuff as well as imitating the mutt.

Thaaats right

Then I went to my friends house and we just kinda chilled. We got soo hungry that we went to Mc Donaldssss

You can see how hungry I was.

Anyways I talked to my mum today I moved back into my house (YAAAAAY!) but she's still not talking to me at all.

DOUBLE SUN POWERR!

Sooo Emma sent me this ammaaazing video of Latrel from white chicks feautring in this commerical and I personally find it very exciting and extremely well-made.

I love it.
Anyways I'm half way through my math portfolio, my bio labs and ACT mock tests aren't even started yet.
But other than that, I'm okay. Not exactly having the time of my life but I'm satisfied for now.

It's really cold now

need a lot of whiskey to go through it.

Workload!

If I was a good student and did not procrastinate then I wouldn't be updating my blog like this but oh well I can't help it.

My Japanese IOP and Chem Lab is due tomorrow... but I've only started Japanese IOP and I think we're supposed to memorise what to say..

I was just.. casually browin through lookbook and listening to music. I got so distracted especially with make up tutorials, I've recently discovered bubzbeauty I love her she's so cute but I dont think I can pull off any looks she can coz she is such a cute type.. yeah... people who could probably pull it off would be like Karen or Jia Wen (Lam).... It sucks coz I'm not short enough to be qualified to be the cute type or tall enough to be sexy but oh well thats my life so fuck it.

I'm currently in L.O.V.E with stolen girlfriends club, check out this ring:

Sooooooooo cute!

Anyways I should really get on with my stuff.. but I can't concentrate I get so distracted! ARGH!

And I can't go to the gym so I think I'm bloating.. even right now... 

Today was such a shit day. Like in Japanese... okay I don't want to repeat. But I HATE clueless bitches. Far out. If she does that one more time, I'll either beat the shit out of her, or make her leave the school. FUCK!

and my chem teacher pisses me off too. He's always in a hurry. Can't we just chill... and take our time?

Why do things have due dates anyways? Why do we have go to to uni after specific amount of time? Cant we all just TAKE OUR TIME and chillax?

STRESS

I hate stress so much. I just CAN'T deal with it. I have so much to do at school and if I make a list I'll get even more depressing. Me and Emma were just making a list and I had to stop myself it was so depressing. I get depressed easily but I get over it easily so I guess it balances out.

I'm stressed about schoolwork.. and my extra curriculars... and especially my weight. Yeah I can literally grab my flabs now.

Anyways I definitely need more stimulation in my life. My friend Joe suggest we have a rowdy gettogether at rainbows end where everybody HAS to be high on pills and getting all freaky but I dont know if I'll go considering the amount of work I have to do which SUCKS coz i wanna hang out sooooo bad.

I'm not really into pills that much anyways, me Alissa and Kev are all naturals and we're more into herbs and shrooms and stuff, not chemicals, oh no.

Or instead of getting high, I could do something to keep me occupied. Not tetris battle but something more active like yoga or like dancing or something. Or I could join that mysterious cult that always meditates on Aotea square everyday.... Or I need to find a hot guy and start liking him or any hot guy to start liking me so I could have some more fun but the trouble is I'm at AIC and that doesnt help plus I cant go clubbing lately coz my friend is about to get fired for letting too many underaged people in.

It sucks coz my best friend doesnt talk to me anymore we havent been talking in ages I'm kinda mad at her I make so much effort but I dont think she sees it shes too busy in her own world I guess its really the end for us now.

FUCK MY LIFE.